[Give him a moment to mull this over. He'd like to think he learned plenty- the year in the castle dungeon sure helped with that. Having the guards treat you like a feral animal for a year sure gets the point across. ]
I guess I've always felt that if I stop blaming myself it makes what I did okay somehow. Like I'm sloughing off the bad things I've done and the people I've hurt like they don't matter. I never wanted to give myself a free ride on this. I deserve to be punished and hated for it.
Even if the people back home don't seem to think so any more.
[Which has always been part of the problem. Corona is so quick to forgive - he had to save them from the Red Rocks to be sure, but they've still forgiven him. Rapunzel forgave him in a heartbeat, welcomed him back with open arms like nothing had changed at all, like he hadn't tried to destroy her and everything and everyone she held dear. People who do bad things should be made to feel bad, he sure hates himself plenty. But no one else does any more and he's not sure what to do with that.]
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I guess I've always felt that if I stop blaming myself it makes what I did okay somehow. Like I'm sloughing off the bad things I've done and the people I've hurt like they don't matter. I never wanted to give myself a free ride on this. I deserve to be punished and hated for it.
Even if the people back home don't seem to think so any more.
[Which has always been part of the problem. Corona is so quick to forgive - he had to save them from the Red Rocks to be sure, but they've still forgiven him. Rapunzel forgave him in a heartbeat, welcomed him back with open arms like nothing had changed at all, like he hadn't tried to destroy her and everything and everyone she held dear. People who do bad things should be made to feel bad, he sure hates himself plenty. But no one else does any more and he's not sure what to do with that.]