Hazel barks a little, flopping over in front of Kurt to get more scratches. Fern glances down at him, then away. "It's hard, since I know what my life would've been like. I saw it every day back home with Finn. I had to do the same thing when I was Finn Sword, but it didn't feel as bad back then. Now it just drives me crazy, and Ruby reminds me of him, and it's just -"

He drags his hands down his face, making a frustrated noise. "How you keep yourself from thinking that kind of stuff?"