[ Kurt ducks his head a little, hoping the mix of emotions he's feeling don't play out too clearly on his face. It is worth it, of course -- he loves Fern and would do anything to keep him safe and happy. But guilt and regret still nags at him; the knowledge that it might have meant his partners got hurt as well a bitter pill to swallow.

He tries to push it aside, sighing and straightening up to look at Varian. ]

It was. Gott, I just -- I wish it had been different. [ He rubs his jaw with his palm, thinking about Jean-Paul's advice about living with it. ] I don't enjoy hurting people. Even if it is for someone I care about. But.. it's done now. And I'm glad Fern is feeling better.