[Varian actively winces at the change of expression. He's really not sure if this will help or hinder. But he knows he probably shouldn't keep it a secret. He plays with his hands, staring down at the counter.]

Ok. So I was talking to Martin Blackwood- Jon died around the same time as Fern [because Fern killed him and then fell apart] and Martin said he did this... sacrifice to lessen the death symptoms Jon was suffering. He'd also got amnesia and it worked? Martin lost his ability to feel emotions and Jon's amnesia was a lot less than it should have been.

[One hand moves to rub at the back of his neck.]

So... Fern's amnesia should have lasted three months. I've read up on it enough to know that. But it didn't it lasted one. And I can put two and two together to make four. I um- it's a possibility Sodder was pulling those strings in a very specific way. I didn't...like, ask for this because I'm not insane, but I did want to help Fern, more than anything. I think she took that as a go-ahead for what happened.

S...o, I think you were even less in control of that one than you might have thought. Also, Sodder is the worst, which I think we have already established.